My besty of 13+ years is engaged and HER AND HER FIANCÉ ARE CUTE AS FUCK, OK. She hopes I can make it to her wedding in a year and a half from now; and so do I! I legitimately cry because they’re so cute and I’m so happy for her!


One Month

So our 1 month anniversary is coming up on the 28th, and babe wants to take me out to dinner at an actual restaurant and then we’re gonna see the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie! i’m so excited! I love this man to death, and i don’t ever plan on letting him go. ♥ He makes me feel whole and genuinely loved. I’ve never had a guy in my life that put in this much effort with and for me. It feel’s wonderful. ♥♥♥

youtube partner

So my bro Jay asked me if i wanted to partner with him on his channel and i told him i’d think about it before giving him an answer.

I did think on it for a while and i eventually decided to tell him- yes! I’ll pair up with him.

So he was actually relieved to hear that back from me cause his other partner’s just up and dropped out.

We’ll be doing live game play, audio, and collecting game play news for separate consoles, but working together.

I’m honestly nervous a shit cause this is new to me; but i’m also excited as well! Guess we’ll see how this goes.

Hot damn

My boyfriend was tracing his fingers all over my body last night to the point I was massively aroused and shaky and HOLY HELL IT FELT NICE.

And then he told me I caused him boners all night and I’m thinking “good. Payback for making me soak my underwear and not sleep last night 😂”

God his touch is intoxicating.


When he’s the big spoon, like, omg his spooning is amazing and I always feel safe and warm with him. ❤ And when he lightly strokes your ribs when he’s half asleep and it feels OMFGBAKFBKSHFNS. I can’t even.

Life is good now

My life has gotten significantly better over the past few months, especially thanks to my babe and everything he’s helped me with and done for me up to this point (and still going.) I feel healthier, I’ve lost quite a bit of weight due to eating less/healthier more often, i’m even starting to fit my smaller sized clothing again, slowly, but surely. i haven’t even had a need for my depression meds because my babe makes me genuinely happy and i don’t have to fake my happiness anymore. He also doesn’t pressure me into anything i DON’T want to do, and understands my point of view on preferring to be a stay-at-home and doesn’t belittle my choices like a prick; he also ask’s for my consent before doing anything sexual (which we haven’t done yet, but he will always ask first anyway’s.) Not to mention; my psychiatrist also said that he’s noticed I’ve been doing much better it seem’s and he’s happy for me. Like, you don’t know how happy and relieved that makes me.

Overall i just feel like a far better person now, and i’m tremendously happier.



Well it’s been a pretty eventful birthday… Funeral, then part of the tree in our front yard falls over and onto our roof causing damage, boyfriend rushed over after getting off work and calling me back to find out what happened (after I tried getting ahold of him 3-4 times), and then he brought me roses (before the tree fiasco), I got a fidget spinner, hair straightener, blow dryer, two new shirts, a new jacket, two books, and he got me Deus Ex and Dragon Age Inquisition for Xbox, and a 300 writing prompt book for my birthday.

All in all it was a good day when I was with my babe.